When I was in Doha I was introduced to #mindfulness because of some personal struggles. Since that time I’ve made an effort to routinely #meditate and learn to be present. Not everyone can appreciate this and that’s okay. I’m just going to share with you a little of my experience.
There were four #Chakra songs that I meditated to in #Doha. I still have those songs on my playlist and when I meditate to them I literally go back to a calm place and when I’m done, I am centered. I can tell when I’ve slacked on the meditation because I literally feel off balance.
Recently, I was in Anthropologie and came across a book: Do One Thing Every Day That Centers You: a mindfulness journal. Three people came to mind as I flipped through the pages of this book: my girlfriend who recently went through a time of decision making, a friend I admire and whose drive inspires whom I thought would appreciate such a journey, and my son. I think I’ve bought Jaden a book for his birthday or for Christmas since he learned to read. I can’t honestly say that I know he’s read any of them. My hope is that he will crack this one open and learn at an early age to be reflective and learn to center himself; especially since he enjoys writing. Of course, I bought these three people the book and I bought a copy for myself.
It’s only been a couple of weeks and there is a blaring theme for me as I’ve been completing my daily journal entries. The theme is family, relationship, and companionship. I’ll share one of my entries.
The quote: “No man is an island, entire of itself, every man is a piece of the continent, a part of the main.” – John Donne
The book then prompts me with this: My Continent
Here’s my response: “Wow, I can’t believe I’m going to say this but it’s my family. As I get older, I long for that connection and those relationships.”
Some may know that I am not close with my family. I don’t do drama well and let’s just say, my family could have a hit reality show with the drama that goes on. I’ve been an island for many years and will only row close to the shore every now and then. Over the past year or so, I’ve been to see some of my family. My oldest sister has moved closer and we’ve spent more time together since I’ve been in #Houston that we ever have in our lives. It’s been nice and my patience has come a long way. As for my nieces, nephews, and little brother, I love seeing the men and women they’ve grown to become. They are all still so young and have the opportunity to do so much. Life is all about choices. I pray they make good choices.
One thing I’ve noted is that my nieces and nephews have started a tradition that has
touched me. They’ve named their kids after other family members. They, without even knowing, have inspired something in me that I can’t explain. Something so simple demonstrates their love for family; something that I have lost sight of over the years. I want to thank them for helping their auntie/sister consider the importance of keeping family relationships. I will still protect myself from the drama but my heart has softened on the bullsh*t.
As I continue centering myself daily, I’m sure to uncover more things to keep me centered and make me whole. That is what I long for at this point in my life…becoming whole and staying centered.
Living life…and it’s good.